Desired Things

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrman

Wild Hearts

Pause.
Breathe.
Sit.
Take it in.
Breathe again.
Break.
Cry.
It heals the soul.
Be detached.
Find closure.
Search frantically.
Fake a smile.
Watch them pass by.
Hold it together.
Wild hearts can’t be broken.

Eat. Pray. Love.

I’m sitting up with my laptop on my lap, my legs haphazardly tucked beneath a duvet on the double bed of a hotel room I’m lodged in for two nights, playing the clapping game.

The clapping game has me clapping loudly every 3-7 minutes in arithmetic progression. One clap. Silence. Two claps. Silence….

Thing is, I chose this day to be alone. I just wanted space, I craved it. And I got it. But now, there’s this stray cricket in my room who’s gone insane with the silence around here and is chirping loudly to make the environment livelier. But I do not want lively right now. I want still. As such, I cannot play loud music to deaden its chirping (which is irking me badly) out. I’ve settled for clapping intermittently. It’s working a little bit.

I like being alone a lot. As a matter of fact, much more than I thought. For someone as jovial as me, it’s quite alarming. But yeah, that’s that. I had planned this “holiday” (for lack of better words to describe it) a while ago. I simply wanted a place stay that had no one and would have me lazying around like a brat, reading and maybe just a tad of soul-searching. And it was all working out well, until this cricket thought to chirp.

I’ve been in bed all day, reading Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert – hence the title – and it’s been a good day eating. reading. giggling. For every moment I’ve tried towards soul searching, I’ve dozed off for the next two hours. (That has happened twice) So, I’ve given up. My soul probably needs not be searched.

Last year was all sorts of things for me. Most of all it was such a rush. I basically saw everything and noticed nothing. I just didn’t get the time to. I had said at its beginning that resolutions were flawed, mantras were better. I stuck to “work hard, play hard, love hard”. I only worked hard in the whole year. Mantras are now flawed ūüėź

I have no exact direction with this. It was born out of my irritation with the chirping sound. It’s silent now, so I can go.

One last thing. This time off has taught me one thing:

There’s only a few things that can make you genuinely happy. Happy without feeling selfish, or having your conscience nag you into asking God for forgiveness. Just genuinely happy in that moment. In yourself. You should seek those things out and do them. All of life is but a dream and you’re entitled to enjoying every bit of it.

You’ve only got one life to live. Make it worth it.

Have a cheerful additional twelvemonth ahead.

Eat.Pray.Love. Giggle and Read too

Those little epiphanies

When I’m on the fast lane,¬†living everyday like I’m entitled and complaining about the least significant things; I’m thankful for little rude awakenings that zap me back to reality and leave me feeling grateful for this level of grace I do not deserve.

Do you know Nick Vujicic? You should Google his images up.¬†I met him today –¬†on wikipedia – and he left me feeling grateful. It only felt right to share some of that with you.

I’m thankful for;

  • My mornings. They involve me getting off my bed tired as hell – after barely four hours of sleep – wondering what all of life is about. I get to see each new day.¬†
  • For all the fight and hate¬†I had with my sister, growing up. We’re getting closer as the days go by. It’s the best thing in my life these days.
  • My parents who are constantly at each other’s throat, they’re alive and have that much vigor, That’s definitely a blessing of good health and vitality, yes?
  • Friends, who despite my inanities still find time to check on me and get angry when they have no idea what’s going on with my life. So much love :)
  • How I get totally pissed off at work and wish I could just give someone a piece of my mind. I’ve got a job!
  • My crazy broke days, when I starve at work till I’m home to have dinner. I feel what it is to have little and appreciate it more, when I have a lot
  • My inability to squeeze time out for the fun things of life. Makes me live the best of the littlest moment I get.
  • The plenty wrongs I’ve done. I’m a step closer to self discovery.

It’s a really long list, but I’ll stop now.

One of the most important things is knowing that in all the banter about how our lives are not-so-good, there are tons of people who hardly know what a fairly good life is. My dad’s favorite quote when I start to go on and on is ¬†“I was crying I had no shoes, then I met someone who had no legs”

We really need to learn to breathe and be thankful through it all.

 

‘The happiest¬†of¬†people don’t¬†necessarily¬†have¬†the best of everything; they just make the most of¬†everything¬†that comes along their way.’ –¬†Karen S. Magee

Peace!